This Site Is Down Indefinitely
After a life spent in the middle of Christianity, ten years as a full-time Christian, and three years dedicating endless hours to explaining myself to people, I’ve decided to move on and try something else.
For the past few weeks I’ve been feeling really bummed at the reality that instead of acceptance in a faith that professes to believe in a God of unconditional love, I’ve witnessed rejection and abandonment over the smallest of disagreements. Instead of life in a faith that professes to believe in The Life, I’ve found more death, bitterness, anger, and hatred than any “unbeliever” I’ve ever encountered.
For most of my Christian life, I’ve witnessed a family of hostile people who call each other brothers and sisters, yet aren’t willing to accept anybody with different ideas than their own. And while I know that doesn’t apply to everybody, I don’t want to be a part of this on-going movement that values its own ideas and opinions more than people.
The epitome of the Tree of the knowledge of good and evil has been most evident in modern Christianity, and I will partake of it no longer.
My sincerest thanks to those of you who haven’t treated me harshly for my unconventional beliefs, and sincerest apologies to everyone I’ve treated that way in the past. Up until two months ago (Jan. 2013) Christianity had been like a father figure in my life (i.e. it was my source of knowledge of right and wrong). I was programmed to treat people according to the Christian perspective of morality rather than the universal code of kindness and love.
I know that’s probably the case with people who have treated me the same, so I can empathize. Consequently, I leave with no anger, bitterness or animosity towards anyone. I only leave with a desire for change. A desire for life outside of this superficial Christian bubble I’ve grown up in.
I’m on an exploration. I’m adventuring in my relationship with God, and I don’t want the constant criticism of people telling me where I can and cannot go. If God is as limitless and infinite as we like to tell our congregations, then there are no walls, rules, or boundaries. “Nothing is impossible.”
Thank you for your patience, your love, and your civil conversations.
Talk to you soon,
D. R. Silva